My Story: Day 3 - My Origin Story

Well well well, I suppose it’s come to this.

I guess I must begin with a backstory. Explaining who I am and why I am and express my epiphany that brought me into self realization.

It was far from simple but I essentially had to kill myself to find out the way I was doing things wasn’t a way that would work. On October 13th 2018 I was hospitalized for an overdose, on muscle relaxers & alcohol. My entire system had basically atrophied. I was so messed up I didn’t even realize that day was my sister Felicity’s birthday. I spent that day and the rest of that week in the hospital.

As you can imagine it wasn’t the beginning of my problems. 2018 had been a long year of health issues and legal troubles and relationships struggles and work problems and even so much as my dog passing away. It was a lot happening at once. I wasn’t happy with who I was or the life I was leading and I thought my only way out was to end it.

Here I am 21 months later, writing to you 2 days after my 21 month sober anniversary prouder than ever of who I am and the life I’m leading and the steps I’m taking in a direction I am proud of.

I’ve got a long way to go to where I want to be but I’ve come so far I don’t even recognize myself anymore.

The process in revitalizing my life started with going to the gym and making music. I was able to dedicate myself to my passions and my projects and my growth and revitalize my life and find new purpose through music and patience with myself and rewarding my body with the discipline of exercise and consistency in my craft.

Making music became for me the holy grail of spending my time. I found time making music and losing myself in making beats and songs and really just losing myself in the art.

I came from a place of seeing no other way than blacking out and getting high all the time as my only means of contentment and I totally flipped my life on it’s head finding myself in music and dedication to myself.

I spent an entire year working on music and on my One Year Sober date, I released my first EP, Sxberbutstillfxckedup on all streaming platforms and I even had a big event where I rented a Cannabis Friendly Social Club, had a few artists play, had some comedians perform, some vendors and even my friends Taco shop set up to support me and my first project release. I was blown away by the support my friends and family showed for my event. I was honored to have them with me and them show me how proud they were of my change of lifestyle.

For awhile things were great, I had two things no one could ever take way from me, my music and the gym. The dedication to myself and my craft and my art and even if I could only spend an hour a day or a week I was putting in that time to build myself and where I wanted to be.

Then Covid-19 hit and every public place was closed. No gyms. No events. No shows. I was finally in full form, making music, making videos, performing at events and then production for the world went to virtually 0. The markets crashed, everything went into lock down and the world as we knew it changed.

I was consistently releasing weekly freestyle videos on youtube. dropping songs every couple weeks and hitting the gym 4–5 times a week. I was feeling as great as I ever had and basically unstoppable.

The music and fitness had me mentally and physically evolving everyday. Then the gyms closed. I started focusing more on my music and my production and creating myself.

I have dedicated all of this time into finding myself and uncovering my true wants and needs and desires. Working on my businesses like Counted Blessings, LLC and my savings and abilities. Finding who I am and distancing myself from who I was and pushing myself where I want to be.

Nothing can stop you when you are motivated from within.

I now produce for myself and make melodies and work with a collaborative of producers and content creators that constantly push me to be a better version of myself and congratulate me on my milestones and offer support and advice and perspective. Making the necessary connections and developments for myself and my career and where I want to see myself as an artist and producer.

I just got back from LA last week, where I worked with a 4x Gold Producer who has worked with some major recording artists and we made a track and a music video. Coming from this time last year where we were filming my freestyles on a phone in front of a TV playing beats, the growth is noteworthy.

The gyms are back open here in R.I (I know they aren’t for the most of the country) but the time I utilized learning the production fundamentals and learning basic music theory has evolved my artistic ability as a whole.

Now I will be focusing my attention on developing my teams creative passions and my collectives creative abilities to make a life we can all be proud of with what we create.

The people I surround myself with make me better and I aim to do better by them so I will be promoting mine and their beats and melodies and sounds and offering cover graphic templates and doing all I can to make it so we can work full time on our passions.

I will help promote success through fulfillment for my people and I will help get us all where we want to be.

Having found myself through music and the template of dedication to myself and my goals and practicing the fundamentals of growth I have helped reach within myself a state I am proud to be in all the time.

I aim to push this mindset and this lifestyle for everybody who I am lucky enough to work with and I cant wait to see where we are this time next year.

Love for you guys always

Cody, Blessings